Hello, my name is Maya, I’m 16 years old, and I’m from Romania. I don’t know exactly when it all started. When I was little, I would go to bed at night and see a lot of spots on the ceiling of my room. I didn’t think much of it until now, considering its symptoms.
Since I was young, I always felt fear and anxiety, along with a sense of depersonalization, but I told myself it was all in my head and that I was okay. Recently, however, everything became worse. I started to feel more anxious, afraid, and experienced intense depersonalization and derealization.
I looked online for information about the visual snow I had dismissed, thinking it was completely normal and that everyone saw it this way. Every evening when I went outside for a walk, everything appeared much darker, and the spots multiplied. I saw the lights from traffic lights and street lamps as flashes. I didn’t really pay attention to these symptoms, but they always made me feel restless. Until I researched online, I thought my non-visual sensations were related to my brain, but apparently, they are connected to visual snow.
